Joshua

Dear Babyboy,

Remember when we first met? You were scooting around the nursery in the walker, filling the room with the sound of your gasps and giggles.

You came over to the big house not too long after our chance meeting and I got to see a lot more of you--just what I'd been hoping for. You found your place in my heart in no time. Nope, no time at all.

It started out as a very very active friendship. You bounced while I stabilized.

Remember that evening when we got to look out the playroom windows together? I showed you the monkeys playing in the trees and you sighed with delight and wonder.

I love the way you squint your eyes and smile real big when I blow in your face. You are the most handsome boy I know--even, scratch that, ESPECIALLY when your snotty nose is all scrunched up and you have big alligator tears rolling down your cheeks.

Tonight you crawled over to me crying after Mark had taken your toy--again--and you wiped your nose back and forth on my shoulder then laid your head on my snot covered sleeve. I didn't mind.

I like that game we play where you sit in my lap with your head against my chest then all of a sudden sit up to look at me, smile, then throw your head back against my chest. It's one of my favorites.

I know I should guard my heart--I won't be with you forever. We only have ninety-some days left together. Let's make the best of it, mmkay?

All my love,

Dadadadadadadaaa